Day in review August 27, 2015

I have yet another headache. It is making me short tempered and judgmental. Someone is sitting near me that had an odor that isn’t helping. I’m listening to the guy next to me discuss with his kid, the editorial changes he made to his homework. There are more than a few that are on the rush hour train taking up extra seats. Earlier today, I was supposed to spend about six hours at a variety of clincal shadowing experiences, but I was stood up (essentially). It left me with a free day, but I didn’t use it as productively as I would like.

Which always brings me back to the struggle I am having with my work. I am bogged down with little things that can fill too much time. I don’t prioritize well (not that I fully understand what the priorities are. I know what I would like them to be.). I feel frozen about what to do next and I don’t feel that my boss is available for me to discuss these things with. This week especially since I was in a meeting where I was jumped on about IRB procedures. I felt it, and it was commented on later by a colleague. I’m not allowed to protect my time and create my own structure. I’ve seen it happen where people are criticized for not coming to meetings, but we’re also not allowed to determine when meetings are.

In the end, all of this is the usual bitching. Although I haven’t had time to look at the data (and less so now that Charlotte) is here, I suspect that stress is a factor in my headaches. It does no good to complain. I need actionable points. And tomorrow is already Friday.