Direction

My last entry was over a month ago. I hadn’t realized that the time slipped by. I also didn’t realize that my Grandmother’s thank you letter from Christmas was sitting under my insurance renewal papers.

I’m on the express train home because it’s my husband’s birthday. We’ll see what the mood is like when I get there. His birthdays are starting to take the flavor of self-fulfilling prophecies. The specific flavor I can’t get into in this forum, lack of readership or not. One thing has been true more often than not. It’s snowing. It seems to do that on his birthday.

But aside from the home drama, not much has changed. Proobably explains why I haven’t written much. I spend my bus rides relearning my French through Duolingo. I read on the trains. I go home tired and stresses either by work or home. Work because of the workload, lack of direction, and lack of budget that would make my contract situation clear. I know it’s a “Jones” issue, but I got a notice today of a colleague who got a position bump by going to Argonne. As I sit in limbo because of our Governor who is holding his breath like a toddler, I wonder where my career is going. I wonder if it can go anywhere (see reference to previous family drama).

The whole scenario is making me moody as well. Not a good contributor to the situation as a whole. But I will go home and get through and figure out what else needs to be done next.