Stress

In many  of my entries so far I have been navel gazing at my life and how it relates to a number of different emotional or mental aspects. I thik what is happening is my tumbling toward managing stress. Job shifts are counted as major life changes. This has been a positive one and relatively bigger than most, which for the last two have been lateral moves. I need to look closely at my headache data, but I sense a headache when I get overwhelmed and feel that I’m either not performing enough (quantity) or worry that I can’t pull it all off (quantity and quality).

I have a headache now and it is edging toward my eye. I am going home to have dinner, hamburger and salad, and then finish the last of the book repairs. This summer has been a list of little things I am trying to get done. The summer is winding up and so are the projects. I hope to get the last of it done next weekend by repairing and painting the facia. That will depend on if Dad is going to take Connor for a week or so. After that, I can focus on the coming fall and what will be necessary for me to take care of myself. I’ve been better at that, making sure that I have some weekend activity that I enjoy or find fulfilling. However, I want to take advantage of the weather while we have good summer sun.

All of this is part of stress management: exercise, activities, changing eating habits. I suspect most of these things are linked to my mental state. I finally watched the “Stroke of Insight” TED talk. The part that resonated with me was where she was describing her experience with the half of her brain that links to the collective we and experiences nirvana. That’s an experience I would love to have and intuitively I feel that I am inhabiting too much of the other, rational, individual side of  my brain. I suspect that may be contributing to my stress as well.

But these are all speculations. And still navel gazing. It’s time to do some work.