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Back to work
I have been on vacation for the past ten days. They weren’t structured in a way ideal for me to feel rested, but it was still time off. Three mini events broke it up: a Ravinia weekend, a trip to Springfield, and a Fourth of July barbeque at home. Ravinia was fun and less stressful than I imagined because the alcohol was kept in check. The weather wasn’t cooperative, being rainy and quite cool. The music made up for it and being able to talk with friends. Springfield would take an entry of it’s own. There was enough to see in the two days that we were there. I walked…
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The edge of comparison
I find myself frustrated. I am becoming dissatisfied with my life again. I was calm and a little more centered after reading Cameron, but that has faded. I have identified it a little earlier than usual this time. Because I am tired, comparison becomes easier than work. I want to have an amazing life, full of quirks and opportunity. From the inside it looks like work and drudgery. But it looks that way because I have compared it to other lives. I have not focused on the things that I have done. Nor have I been gentle with myself. I have bought into the culture of scarcity that says because…