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Emotional wish list
I’m feeling better today. In addition to the moodiness I was working on a headache for the latter half of the day. I went to bed, slept poorly, and went to gym this morning anyway. But I started to change during the gym session. It started with me giving myself permission to not do anything strenuous. I still had the headache. I wasn’t my best. The point was not to worry about whether or not I was getting my money’s worth or putting in a gold star performance. Because of this little change in attitude, I was able to see that I’ve been hard on myself and I need to…
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Moodiness and self care
I wish I had an explanation for my mood today. General moodiness started to creep in last night and has settled in for a bit. The feeling is a combination of ennui and dissatisfaction. I look at my life and I find it lacking. There is no joy, only a grouchiness at the world around me stemming from a vague sense of unfairness and inequality. My personal demons are rampaging as well. I’m getting fatter. I’m not a patient parent. I am losing the ability to be nice to children and small animals. Not good. I used to be a more optomistic person. I didn’t suffer from these bouts of…
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Day in review May 29, 2015
Good news on the employment front. It looks very good that my contract will be renewed. I’ll be happy when I have the contract in hand, but this is as good as it’s going to get until the budget gets in and things get signed. That said, it feels good that I can focus on planning for the year. Some thing I have been trying to do for a month. My current time has been taken up with preparing for this weeks lecture and working on the regional NN/LM proposal. I am working with a colleague on this and will be turning in a draft of it on Monday. I…
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Bikes and books
I have successfully biked both to and from work today. It was more labor than I thought having an actual gym workout as well. I discovered that while Jackson is scary, its manageable. Drivers, in general, are used to a lot of bikes on the road in the loop. The inevitable happened. Now that I am riding a bike in the city, I see them everywhere and it wasn’t unusual to have a few of us lined up at a stop light. What I also discovered, is that this will be a little hard on my knees. These bikes are not light. The bike in the morning wouldn’t hold it’s…
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Day in Review May 27, 2015
Today was the first day of my Divvy riding. I successfully, and enjoyably, rode from Union station a half mile west to my library. I don’t think it saved me any time, but I think it will save me some money and give me some exercise at the same time. I went to the gym and at least I feel like I’ve had a full workout. I figure that if I use Divvy three times a week to work, that’s saved me minimum $24 per month. Four times is $32. At that price, if I bike for two months, I break even. I don’t mention riding back from work, because…
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Day in review May 26, 2015
I came to work today feeling the psychlogical weight of all the work I had to do. I had a list (overly ambitious) of a few that I wanted ot knock off over the weekend. I figured that a weekend at my mom’s house would have enough down time. If not that, then the holiday would give me the room I needed. But it didn’t. I was tired the whole weekend. The funeral for Donald was quiet and quick. But it was draining just the same. The emotional energy it takes being around my mother, circumstance notwithstanding, is always tiring. Then there was the drive home, dropping off the sister,…
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Day in Review May 21, 2015
Today is the end of my week because my uncles funeral has been scheduled for tomorrow. As such, the timing isn’t great because I have to get the last of my teacing materials for next week, and the week starts with a holiday. I’ve done the distasteful thing and brought work home. I certainly do this more that I have (or could) in my previous job, but I have to be careful that it doesn’t become a habit. I can see how that happens now. I feel good about the coming year. I have a lot of opportunity and a lot of work ahead. It will be good work too.…
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Day in review May 19, 2015
I have been trying to plan my workweek so that I have time blocked through Wednesday. I find it difficult to plan much beyond that right now because I don’t have a good idea of how long tasks take. By Wednesday I have a better idea and can fill out the rest of the week. I’m hoping that I can take this one step further this year. I have my goals laid out for this year and once the review is done, then they will be solid. At that point I can start blocking out my time in terms of what I need to get done in a given month.…
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Day in review May 18, 2015
This week is a relatively light load. I don’t have instruction or many meetings. Most of my days will be like this one: Worked on a search for a meta-analysis I am partnering on. Prepped the handouts for the mobile pharmacy resources that I will be teaching next week Prepped a little of my performance review (that I absolutely need to finish tonight) Search for information for an inmate in another state that was referred to us for medical information Loaded my stats for the day For the coming year I will take my review document and populate it with the things that I will do these coming months. I…
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New tech
It has been a few days and I am getting used to my new tech. My generous family gave me a Samsung Gear 2 watch for Mother’s day. I’ve been looking for a watch and I was intrgued by the “smart” watches that exist now. My job consists of being all over campus for meetings and they are frequently in locations that don’t have a visible clock. As a liaison, I want to be fully present at these because I am trying to build relationships and I find it hard when I can’t keep track of time. In addition, I find myself running back to back on a number of…