• Mental Maintenance,  NNWM,  Writing

    NNWM 2015 Day 4

    So I said that I would participate in NNWM this year and I am — sort of. I always like the idea of this project. This year I have a story line even. But I can;t seem to get any momentum behind it. I open a file and I sit there. I know the point is to just write, but nothing happens. I feel dried up. This feeling is interesting because I know my past hasn’t been that way. I was able to write with various degrees of ease. Right now, writing is the hardest it’s ever been for me. I know what it feels like to just have the…

  • Library,  Mental Maintenance,  Uncategorized

    Day in Review Tuesday, September 22, 2015

    My brain threatens to make this entry a list of all the things to get done. It’s tempting simply because it’s such a habit. I’m on the long train home, I had to take drugs to get through the morning. What happened in between wasn’t as productive as I would like. Freedom can be a dangerous thing. I did get a walk in the late morning though, just from one side to another, but it was enough. For now, I think I will try to get another module of my IRB training done. Past that I will work on ideas for NNWM. My husband would like me to write something…

  • Uncategorized,  Writing

    NNWM 2015

    It is September and that means a few things. One, that my birthday is in a month. Two that I need to book the date for our annual cookie baking day. And three, National Novel Writing Month is seeping into consciousness. I need to decide how I would like to participate and to what degree. Last year I cleared the 50K with relative ease. My approach was to write at least thirty essays, one per day, on topics that I wanted to explore about myself. I created a list of ideas encapsulated in two or three words that I would take my train ride to think about and examine. I…

  • Health,  Mental Maintenance,  Personal Thoughts

    Beautiful words

    I have a secret wish to write beautiful words. I felt it rise up in my consciousness on my walk with the puppy last night. The walk was an impusive flight to get out of the house and capture the early fall before it becomes late fall, and then winter. The day gave way to night in the graceful way it does every day. I typically don’t notice. Yesterday, I heard the cricket chirp and the traffic  people faded away. The dark deepened and left me with no distractions to focus on. I could smell dinner from the condos we passed. And I wished I could capture all that I…

  • Mental Maintenance,  NNWM,  Personal Thoughts

    Nanowrimo wrap up

    It is past the end of November, and if I had done my WordPress updates, my original post might not have gotten eaten two days ago. But such is life. And this life is trying to figure out what to do now. This was the easiest NNWM that I have ever participated in, for two reasons, I think. First, I decided to not try to create an original work, but to spend the month as a rebel and write thirty days worth of essays on thirty-ish different topics. It was definitely easier to take it in bite size pieces that had a defined edge than to dredge something out of…